Drinking My Coffee with Midnight
I was sitting on the rocking wood chair
Outside my abode
The coffee with cream and sugar was good
My meal replacement
My diet so I could look fine as gold one day
For my lover
Hopefully my husband for life
He wanted to take off
But I didn’t want to open the cage
To let him fly
We would both be broke
And instead of flying
I thought I’d end up wrangled
Never to find love like his ever again
My car was in the pound
My puppy Midnight and I were sequestered to home life
For now
Would my life be reassigned?
Would I miss the old life so much
I’d vomit with sickness
And quench my soul
With spiked lemonade and Mary Jane
Could I fend off my enemies
Without the support of friendship
Would my tears continue to be dry
And never fall from my eyes
I saw the women at the street corner
And they were all hookers
Midnight barked at them
Because they took my love life
Away from me
My lover loved them instead of me
And hated them as well
So I pounded my coffee and cigarettes
Under the heat of the sun
And felt the concrete porch
Under my pointed toe red sexy flats
And read bohemian poetry
Waiting for the stars
To clear my headache
So I could redecorate my home
My prison
And consecrate my life
Anoint my face with olive oil
It was the oil on hand
And a black smudge stick
Look for reindeer and Santa
Christmas on the Forth of July was coming up
I wanted a present
A gift from God
And red nail polish to dab my fingernails with
For now they were painted navy with metallic silver broken out on top
Would I ever ride on top of him
So he would enjoy it
And not be put to sleep
I was drugged last night
And the night before
I wanted to run away just so I could hold a job
And hold someone
Listen to music with friends I haven’t even met yet
Because right now I have no friends
Yet I’m famous with the stars thru my talking television set
The chirping birds talk to me also
But my brain just ignores them today
I wanted to feel alive again but with Him and him
So did Midnight
So I plan to play fetch the ball with her even though she’d rather I chase her
For fun
I need a game to play with someone cool
To lift my spirits
Give me good dreams at night
I think I have good neighbors for once
And Chinese fast food was like the best ever in this town
Even though a few people summon the demons
Not many people do that here
Not like the other neighborhood
There I had to cast out 5,000 of them
Astonishing as it was the people brought them right back up
But only Jesus could seal Hell in the Final Judgment day
He wouldn’t
So my loved ones who were dead
Where did they go?
What answer did they get
Were they healed in the afterlife
Where did Anubis move them
And so he’s here and he says its not my time
So I sit here still and try to find some music to dance to
Not as lighthearted as Kid Rock came on
Someone I never heard did instead
I waved my hand at nobody
A chill went down my body and received my senses
I rocked in my chair
My body was becoming tan in the sun
I perspired the tiniest bit
It was enough hope to get thru the day
Maybe we would stay together now that mis-fate didn’t interlude
In my life
It was final enough that the sun deadened
My lawyer was looking for a prescription to make it so
So we spent the millions to bear fruit on that
Someone new, someone old, someone amazing was here
But would we fall in love
Or depart as friends
I didn’t know and the anxiety was killing me
So here I am wanting love today and sitting still
Praying for patience
Slowing down
Thinking of the spiked lemonade
Loving my dog
Wondering if the man upstairs would turn me down
Upside-down
Twist me up
Spit me out
Run
Or encase me in gold forever
We will see what happens.
Outside my abode
The coffee with cream and sugar was good
My meal replacement
My diet so I could look fine as gold one day
For my lover
Hopefully my husband for life
He wanted to take off
But I didn’t want to open the cage
To let him fly
We would both be broke
And instead of flying
I thought I’d end up wrangled
Never to find love like his ever again
My car was in the pound
My puppy Midnight and I were sequestered to home life
For now
Would my life be reassigned?
Would I miss the old life so much
I’d vomit with sickness
And quench my soul
With spiked lemonade and Mary Jane
Could I fend off my enemies
Without the support of friendship
Would my tears continue to be dry
And never fall from my eyes
I saw the women at the street corner
And they were all hookers
Midnight barked at them
Because they took my love life
Away from me
My lover loved them instead of me
And hated them as well
So I pounded my coffee and cigarettes
Under the heat of the sun
And felt the concrete porch
Under my pointed toe red sexy flats
And read bohemian poetry
Waiting for the stars
To clear my headache
So I could redecorate my home
My prison
And consecrate my life
Anoint my face with olive oil
It was the oil on hand
And a black smudge stick
Look for reindeer and Santa
Christmas on the Forth of July was coming up
I wanted a present
A gift from God
And red nail polish to dab my fingernails with
For now they were painted navy with metallic silver broken out on top
Would I ever ride on top of him
So he would enjoy it
And not be put to sleep
I was drugged last night
And the night before
I wanted to run away just so I could hold a job
And hold someone
Listen to music with friends I haven’t even met yet
Because right now I have no friends
Yet I’m famous with the stars thru my talking television set
The chirping birds talk to me also
But my brain just ignores them today
I wanted to feel alive again but with Him and him
So did Midnight
So I plan to play fetch the ball with her even though she’d rather I chase her
For fun
I need a game to play with someone cool
To lift my spirits
Give me good dreams at night
I think I have good neighbors for once
And Chinese fast food was like the best ever in this town
Even though a few people summon the demons
Not many people do that here
Not like the other neighborhood
There I had to cast out 5,000 of them
Astonishing as it was the people brought them right back up
But only Jesus could seal Hell in the Final Judgment day
He wouldn’t
So my loved ones who were dead
Where did they go?
What answer did they get
Were they healed in the afterlife
Where did Anubis move them
And so he’s here and he says its not my time
So I sit here still and try to find some music to dance to
Not as lighthearted as Kid Rock came on
Someone I never heard did instead
I waved my hand at nobody
A chill went down my body and received my senses
I rocked in my chair
My body was becoming tan in the sun
I perspired the tiniest bit
It was enough hope to get thru the day
Maybe we would stay together now that mis-fate didn’t interlude
In my life
It was final enough that the sun deadened
My lawyer was looking for a prescription to make it so
So we spent the millions to bear fruit on that
Someone new, someone old, someone amazing was here
But would we fall in love
Or depart as friends
I didn’t know and the anxiety was killing me
So here I am wanting love today and sitting still
Praying for patience
Slowing down
Thinking of the spiked lemonade
Loving my dog
Wondering if the man upstairs would turn me down
Upside-down
Twist me up
Spit me out
Run
Or encase me in gold forever
We will see what happens.