A Letter From Today

[dedicated to my original friends and family]

I’m alive and life is making sense
For the first time in forever
Wind caught up in a sail
Portals everywhere but your way
Interesting and love and accomplishment
And angst.

Terror has disappeared from my life
And you look on
Forward
And I hope you're singing
Even though scars are spreading everywhere on my body
Like a spiderweb.

Clothing torn from my body
Blood smeared on my shoulders
Hard dick in my vagina
Wanting it
Crusted tears that never come
Standstill.

I’m learning to love my new life.